gee! don't you hate to see yourself that something you've been waitin' for so long turns out to be ... well, let's put it this way, that long-awaited thing is not really exactly what you wished it to be on the first place!

whatever it is, this is crazy.

what a cool Thursday midnight cum Friday early morning! breezing winds blowing through the windows in my room, passing through the densed air scattering glittering dust to create sparkle right under the bright light of fluorescent lamp ... again, it's just a test, another one, seems to be endless tests and trials before enough gust is gathered to proudly declare the birth of a long-awaited darling ...